Listen Closely

Listen closely-

Do you hear that?

Its the sound of me breathing,

Not hyperventilating, screaming, swearing or in general freaking out,

Breathing like any other normal 20 year old woman.

OK so that may have been a little dramatic but in actuality it is a really impressive really crazy thing, because right now, and for the last 2 or 3 days I have been relaxed.  Whats even more impressive is that at this very moment there is no crisis to distract me, no sick or dying person looking for my attention and no huge exam making me want to tear my hair out. It is that beautiful part of the semester where I am caught between the last set of exams and finals and the professors have little to ask of us other than to not say "fuck it" and skip out on class.

The most beautiful thing about this is that while I have shitloads of work to do, its mostly busywork that will not determine whether I pass or fail in life, its nice knowing that I don't HAVE to spend 8 hours on that assignment because if i only get a B on it its not the end of the fucking world. 

Another amazing thing is that for once, I am the hurt one and my dearest boyfriend is the normal person, as he said last weekend for once were back to worrying about my stupid injuries from working with horses like the sprained ankle I have instead of whether or not he is going to die from chemo, or staff, or pneumonia or cancer or something like that.  Hows that for a relationship rejuvenation?

Yep folks pretty much my biggest complaint right now are my shoes, and the fact that I'm a little bit tired, Last night my father had to teach late so we didn't have dinner until 10 and although it was delicious, it was a little late considering I had only gotten 5 hours of sleep the last two nights and I'm pretty useless without at least 8 consistently.  As for my shoes? I'm wearing (well kinda wearing in a disheveled manner much akin to the way my friend Liz dressed In high school) my suit because tonight I get activated into Sigma Alpha Professional Agriculture Sorority,  Quite the mouthful isnt it?  I never saw myself as a sorority girl but the active members are pretty cool and it is a wonderful thing to have on a resume, considering we are actually a clean group and much against keg parties. No offense to those bubbly drunks I see stumbling around campus 8am on Monday morning proudly displaying their letters ><.

Anyway now that I have effectively used up the time I would have spend in my class that was cancelled this morning I will go back to work
toodles!