Life, Death, and All the Above.

          Its a fact of life, people die, Ive also decided that its a fact of life that everyone gets cancer, its just a matter of when and how bad, and the shape your in when you get it. Your lucky if you get it in your 30's and its something simple like, a cancerous mole, a little lazer and a mild scalpel your done, no more.  If your unlucky you will have to deal with it while your young; this is my boyfriend; forcing you to grow up more every day, watching others fall down around you, and your not even 20.  A bit more unlucky is in the case when you haven't even made it a year, your not even old enough to know what death is and your battling it every day.  If your really unlucky you'll get it when your already sick, due to age, or another handicap. This is my grandmother, and this is her second round. You'd think chemo was bad the first time? Think about having to consider facing it again,
          So here I am in a hospice, watching my grandmother slowly wilt away and wondering how much longer shes got left,  and I'm thinking, if were so fucking smart why are we killing ourselves,  all this technology that sets us apart from the 'wild' is whats causing all this, this laptop im sitting at- causes cancer from the electrical signal it sends out that accumulates in my body or something.  The plastic bottle I drank Gatorade from this afternoon- cancer.  The Teflon on the pan that the cookie I was eating- cancer.   My cell phone- Cancer, hell its probably in my clothes too.  What is so great about humans? We cause war, destroy nature, and kill ourselves.  Were roaches.
          So in my afternoon of wisdom I left my own head for a while and took a few pictures.  Im hoping to be able to come up and visit my grandmother after exams.